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Friday, October 9, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
The green eyed monster that is me..
I try not to write about myself to often.. I am not very interesting.
But today i will share a side of myself to you all that I am not proud of.
My sister is pregnant and throwing an AWESOMELY huge baby shower..and I'm jealous. So GOD DAMN jealous.. I'm jealous for so many reasons, some are petty, some i guess are a bit normal.. (i hope) .. We had our baby shower planned for November back in Ohio.. We were supposed to be going home then for thanksgiving and have the shower the Saturday after thanksgiving.. Invites were sent, decorations were bought, people had RSVP'd..
But.. Emery came before then. So no baby shower..
Everyone tried to make it right by sending gift cards and congratulation cards..but it wasn't right.
as my sister refers to it (we were robbed).. in a way i feel like we were.. and not of gifts or anything like that.. but of those moments.. measuring the belly, laughing about how i couldn't see my feet, guessing her weight.. all those things every mom wants..
There were so many things i wanted to do before Emery came rapidly into the world.. I wanted to plaster cast my belly, i wanted to have a 3d ultrasound... I wanted to be ready.
..
Emery's birthday is rapidly approaching..and i still feel guilty and jealous , very jealous of women who had no complications, could breastfeed to this one year mark.. I hope one day i will have answers as to why she came so early, but until then i will be thankful to God for letting me experience this miracle and remember he picked me to be a preemie mom because he knew i was strong enough.
I can not wait to meet baby Colten and i could not be more excited for my sister and Jon. They deserve this so much..They will be amazingly wonderful parents..
But today i will share a side of myself to you all that I am not proud of.
My sister is pregnant and throwing an AWESOMELY huge baby shower..and I'm jealous. So GOD DAMN jealous.. I'm jealous for so many reasons, some are petty, some i guess are a bit normal.. (i hope) .. We had our baby shower planned for November back in Ohio.. We were supposed to be going home then for thanksgiving and have the shower the Saturday after thanksgiving.. Invites were sent, decorations were bought, people had RSVP'd..
But.. Emery came before then. So no baby shower..
Everyone tried to make it right by sending gift cards and congratulation cards..but it wasn't right.
as my sister refers to it (we were robbed).. in a way i feel like we were.. and not of gifts or anything like that.. but of those moments.. measuring the belly, laughing about how i couldn't see my feet, guessing her weight.. all those things every mom wants..
There were so many things i wanted to do before Emery came rapidly into the world.. I wanted to plaster cast my belly, i wanted to have a 3d ultrasound... I wanted to be ready.
..
Emery's birthday is rapidly approaching..and i still feel guilty and jealous , very jealous of women who had no complications, could breastfeed to this one year mark.. I hope one day i will have answers as to why she came so early, but until then i will be thankful to God for letting me experience this miracle and remember he picked me to be a preemie mom because he knew i was strong enough.
I can not wait to meet baby Colten and i could not be more excited for my sister and Jon. They deserve this so much..They will be amazingly wonderful parents..
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Packing for a preemie..
Our trip home is rapidly approaching.. and I am the biggest procrastinator in the world. I'm not kidding. Since having Emery i have gotten a bit better, I am just more planned out now, My calender is filled up with appointments, calls..just about everything. I now make lists for big trips, because if i dont i will forget something, Hell even with a list i forget stuff ..
I sat down to make Our list starting with my list first.. Pretty basic clothes, shoes, make up, hair stuff.. THE END.. I make Emerys.. Cloth diapers, shoes, monitors, teething tablets, tylenol, blankets, hoodies, womb bear, sling.. the list pretty much grows.. And dont get me started on whats going into the diaper bag.. well ill give you a hint HAND SANITIZER, HAND SANITIZER oh and um MORE HAND SANITIZER. .. With swine flu and the start of RSV season right around the corner you can never be to careful which is why Emery will be accompanied by a sign from Synagis reading "Wash your hands before touching mine" although i would rather it say.. Please don't fucking touch me.. but well um. .. The Christian in me says thats not a very good idea. You see people are very attracted to Emery , The minute someone looks at her she flashes that adorable smile and it just hypnotizes people. My daughter has this charm that even i cant explain. .. I do not know where she got that from.
Today for example, we were at souplantation for dinner, Emery was in her highchair eating some of my mac and cheese and a blueberry muffin when this woman came up to me from clear across the restaurant, to tell me she had been watching my beautiful daughter eat and she has never seen a more happy baby, she said "she seems so loved" Indeed she is.. She proceeded to tell me how gorgeous Emery was and how sweet i was and then sat back down.. not more then 5 minutes later she was back up to talk to us again. She asked her age and told us that Emery's smile made her heart flutter , and that she fell in love with my daughter, and said "she should be in commercials" I smiled and said thank you. This usually happens anytime we go out, but most people arent so polite they will touch her stroke her hair let there kids touch her.. and I am usually very sweet and dont say anything but with this rsv season rapidly approaching..I am taking every precaution... Even if i have to be rude.
Ohio just you wait, your about to be charmed by miss Emery Mae.
I sat down to make Our list starting with my list first.. Pretty basic clothes, shoes, make up, hair stuff.. THE END.. I make Emerys.. Cloth diapers, shoes, monitors, teething tablets, tylenol, blankets, hoodies, womb bear, sling.. the list pretty much grows.. And dont get me started on whats going into the diaper bag.. well ill give you a hint HAND SANITIZER, HAND SANITIZER oh and um MORE HAND SANITIZER. .. With swine flu and the start of RSV season right around the corner you can never be to careful which is why Emery will be accompanied by a sign from Synagis reading "Wash your hands before touching mine" although i would rather it say.. Please don't fucking touch me.. but well um. .. The Christian in me says thats not a very good idea. You see people are very attracted to Emery , The minute someone looks at her she flashes that adorable smile and it just hypnotizes people. My daughter has this charm that even i cant explain. .. I do not know where she got that from.
Today for example, we were at souplantation for dinner, Emery was in her highchair eating some of my mac and cheese and a blueberry muffin when this woman came up to me from clear across the restaurant, to tell me she had been watching my beautiful daughter eat and she has never seen a more happy baby, she said "she seems so loved" Indeed she is.. She proceeded to tell me how gorgeous Emery was and how sweet i was and then sat back down.. not more then 5 minutes later she was back up to talk to us again. She asked her age and told us that Emery's smile made her heart flutter , and that she fell in love with my daughter, and said "she should be in commercials" I smiled and said thank you. This usually happens anytime we go out, but most people arent so polite they will touch her stroke her hair let there kids touch her.. and I am usually very sweet and dont say anything but with this rsv season rapidly approaching..I am taking every precaution... Even if i have to be rude.
Ohio just you wait, your about to be charmed by miss Emery Mae.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Daddy's little girl
J has had an awesome schedule the past 2 weeks..
The Friday before memorial day he got off at noon and he was home until Wednesday at noon.. since he was on the range for grass week Thursday and Friday he got home around 11 ..
Well Emmie is a Daddies girl through and through.. While he was home she absolutely REFUSED to take her naps.. For about the past month during her naps i would lay her in her crib awake and she would fall right to sleep without fussing (AWESOME) well when dad was home she decided that this was no longer the case. She would cry and because I do not believe a baby should be left to cry of course we instantly got her and the only way she would fall asleep was to be rocked by DADDY while she held onto his finger.. the minute he stopped rocking her she would wake up... I really thought that are awesome routine that took me months to establish had just went down the drain.. I was dreading today when Daddy had to go back to work full time especially this week because he is on the range he has to be up by 3:30 am and wont be home until 4:30 or 5 pm... Luckily Emery fell right back into her normal routine with me today once again (AWESOME) She woke up at 9 and had some oatmeal and milk for breakfast.. she had her indpendent play time and her mommy play time and then at 11:30 was ready for her nap. she slept until about 1 at 2 She had lunch chicken and noodles and some apple juice and then half a bottle and now she is taking another nap... Emery really knows how to surprise me and i love that about her.
The Friday before memorial day he got off at noon and he was home until Wednesday at noon.. since he was on the range for grass week Thursday and Friday he got home around 11 ..
Well Emmie is a Daddies girl through and through.. While he was home she absolutely REFUSED to take her naps.. For about the past month during her naps i would lay her in her crib awake and she would fall right to sleep without fussing (AWESOME) well when dad was home she decided that this was no longer the case. She would cry and because I do not believe a baby should be left to cry of course we instantly got her and the only way she would fall asleep was to be rocked by DADDY while she held onto his finger.. the minute he stopped rocking her she would wake up... I really thought that are awesome routine that took me months to establish had just went down the drain.. I was dreading today when Daddy had to go back to work full time especially this week because he is on the range he has to be up by 3:30 am and wont be home until 4:30 or 5 pm... Luckily Emery fell right back into her normal routine with me today once again (AWESOME) She woke up at 9 and had some oatmeal and milk for breakfast.. she had her indpendent play time and her mommy play time and then at 11:30 was ready for her nap. she slept until about 1 at 2 She had lunch chicken and noodles and some apple juice and then half a bottle and now she is taking another nap... Emery really knows how to surprise me and i love that about her.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
44 miles
Everyday when Emery was in the NICU we drove 44 miles to see her, and 44 miles back home. We sometimes made this trip 2-3 times a day.. Today i drove those same 44 miles to take Emery to her pediatric optamology appointment.. It went great she does NOT need glasses.
Man i love good news.
Emery's nurse Jeff met us for the appointment since J couldn't come to help me out since her eyes needed to be dialated. It was so awesome having him there and it just reminds me how many people love Emery and care about her.. After her appointment i wanted to go to the NICU.. So Jeff walked me down there.. As i walked those same corridors i couldnt help but get anxious, my heart started beating fast, my blood pressuer sky rocketed , i felt sick to my stomach.. I remember walking down that corridor everyday for nearly 2 months wondering when i would walk down that corridor with my daughter in my arms.. Now i was strolling down the corridor with my huge 10 month old and a smile on my face, but it still made me sick.. No one was working that took care of Emery but i ran into our social worker who was in charge of are case ( they help military with leave and insurance stuff) She was SHOCKED at how big Emmie was and just gushed about how cute and happy Emmie is.. I cant explain how happy it makes me when people say she is huge!
There was one MAJOR thing that made the trip a little depressing.. The NICU had to move down a hall to expand.. EXPAND.. Which means they have more and more preemies.. It is up to us to fight to end prematurity.. Visit the March Of Dimes website, and find out what you can do to help. 1 in 8 babies are born premature.. be there voice.
Man i love good news.
Emery's nurse Jeff met us for the appointment since J couldn't come to help me out since her eyes needed to be dialated. It was so awesome having him there and it just reminds me how many people love Emery and care about her.. After her appointment i wanted to go to the NICU.. So Jeff walked me down there.. As i walked those same corridors i couldnt help but get anxious, my heart started beating fast, my blood pressuer sky rocketed , i felt sick to my stomach.. I remember walking down that corridor everyday for nearly 2 months wondering when i would walk down that corridor with my daughter in my arms.. Now i was strolling down the corridor with my huge 10 month old and a smile on my face, but it still made me sick.. No one was working that took care of Emery but i ran into our social worker who was in charge of are case ( they help military with leave and insurance stuff) She was SHOCKED at how big Emmie was and just gushed about how cute and happy Emmie is.. I cant explain how happy it makes me when people say she is huge!
There was one MAJOR thing that made the trip a little depressing.. The NICU had to move down a hall to expand.. EXPAND.. Which means they have more and more preemies.. It is up to us to fight to end prematurity.. Visit the March Of Dimes website, and find out what you can do to help. 1 in 8 babies are born premature.. be there voice.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
What can i do?
When Emery was born premature i had many people who didnt know how to act around us, or what to say to us.... Well i have compiled some ideas of things you can do to help or say to a family that has recently had a preemie..
- Say Congrats, it may seem quite simple but many people forget, Remember although are baby was born smaller and most likely not so healthy, this is still an amazing moment for us and we are Happy!
- If they have other kids, ask if you can take them out for the day so mom and dad can relax a bit and also most young children cant come into the NICU, so finding time to go to the Nicu with other children can be tough.
- Make some dinners for them, casseroles are awesome. Something they can reheat and not have to worry about remember anything is better then hospital food!!!
- Ask if you can help them with laundry, When Emery was in the hospital we were only home to sleep and eat(on occasion) so the chores piled up, we had to catch up on 6 weeks worth of laundry!! Even doing one load for them can be such a blessing.
- Do not get mad if they do not return your phonecalls or emails, this time is very difficult it is filled with so many emotions, and it is hard to get back to all the people who are wondering how everything is.
- Or volunteer to send out a mass email or text for them with some details.. "Hi this is so and so paula and j would like you to know that Emery is doing well , they have increased her feeds and she has even gained a few ounces, please keep baby Emery in your prayers!" something like that!
- Put together a NICU gift basket.. include some things like lotion(frequent handwashing for weeks on end ugh), A comfy pillow (those hospital chairs get stiff), Nursing pads for mama, some soft blankets for baby... there are so many things you can add and you can get many of these things from the dollar store! It doesnt have to be expensive or big just shows that you care!
- Remember that Dad is just as effected by this as mom is, i think many people forgot this with my husband..
- Most of all just be there to lend a helping hand, a few kind words.. and a Prayer.
Preemie mommies feel free to add more in the comments!
- Say Congrats, it may seem quite simple but many people forget, Remember although are baby was born smaller and most likely not so healthy, this is still an amazing moment for us and we are Happy!
- If they have other kids, ask if you can take them out for the day so mom and dad can relax a bit and also most young children cant come into the NICU, so finding time to go to the Nicu with other children can be tough.
- Make some dinners for them, casseroles are awesome. Something they can reheat and not have to worry about remember anything is better then hospital food!!!
- Ask if you can help them with laundry, When Emery was in the hospital we were only home to sleep and eat(on occasion) so the chores piled up, we had to catch up on 6 weeks worth of laundry!! Even doing one load for them can be such a blessing.
- Do not get mad if they do not return your phonecalls or emails, this time is very difficult it is filled with so many emotions, and it is hard to get back to all the people who are wondering how everything is.
- Or volunteer to send out a mass email or text for them with some details.. "Hi this is so and so paula and j would like you to know that Emery is doing well , they have increased her feeds and she has even gained a few ounces, please keep baby Emery in your prayers!" something like that!
- Put together a NICU gift basket.. include some things like lotion(frequent handwashing for weeks on end ugh), A comfy pillow (those hospital chairs get stiff), Nursing pads for mama, some soft blankets for baby... there are so many things you can add and you can get many of these things from the dollar store! It doesnt have to be expensive or big just shows that you care!
- Remember that Dad is just as effected by this as mom is, i think many people forgot this with my husband..
- Most of all just be there to lend a helping hand, a few kind words.. and a Prayer.
Preemie mommies feel free to add more in the comments!
Monday, August 24, 2009
another baby??
J and I are often asked when do we want to have our next child. I would be lying if i said i didnt think about it. I do quite frequently. Many women i know from babycenter who have an October 08 baby are pregnant again or are trying, which blows my mind props to you ladies because i could not deal with 2 under 2! or 2 under 1 for that matter!
At this point we are not even sure we want another, next time around will be very difficult i will be a highrisk prenancy, and knowing that we also know that it means lots of bedrest. So if we decided to have another one we would want Emery to be at an age where she doesnt rely on me 24/7 and can play with friends , so most likely if we decide to have another one, Emery will be 4 or 5 at LEAST. J is very much in love with Emery, she is everything to him and its obvious anytime those 2 are in the room together they almost light eachother up, and i love that. I had the same connection with my dad. J would be 100% content with Just Emery and So would I, so i guess only time will tell.
At this point we are not even sure we want another, next time around will be very difficult i will be a highrisk prenancy, and knowing that we also know that it means lots of bedrest. So if we decided to have another one we would want Emery to be at an age where she doesnt rely on me 24/7 and can play with friends , so most likely if we decide to have another one, Emery will be 4 or 5 at LEAST. J is very much in love with Emery, she is everything to him and its obvious anytime those 2 are in the room together they almost light eachother up, and i love that. I had the same connection with my dad. J would be 100% content with Just Emery and So would I, so i guess only time will tell.
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