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Friday, October 9, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
The green eyed monster that is me..
I try not to write about myself to often.. I am not very interesting.
But today i will share a side of myself to you all that I am not proud of.
My sister is pregnant and throwing an AWESOMELY huge baby shower..and I'm jealous. So GOD DAMN jealous.. I'm jealous for so many reasons, some are petty, some i guess are a bit normal.. (i hope) .. We had our baby shower planned for November back in Ohio.. We were supposed to be going home then for thanksgiving and have the shower the Saturday after thanksgiving.. Invites were sent, decorations were bought, people had RSVP'd..
But.. Emery came before then. So no baby shower..
Everyone tried to make it right by sending gift cards and congratulation cards..but it wasn't right.
as my sister refers to it (we were robbed).. in a way i feel like we were.. and not of gifts or anything like that.. but of those moments.. measuring the belly, laughing about how i couldn't see my feet, guessing her weight.. all those things every mom wants..
There were so many things i wanted to do before Emery came rapidly into the world.. I wanted to plaster cast my belly, i wanted to have a 3d ultrasound... I wanted to be ready.
..
Emery's birthday is rapidly approaching..and i still feel guilty and jealous , very jealous of women who had no complications, could breastfeed to this one year mark.. I hope one day i will have answers as to why she came so early, but until then i will be thankful to God for letting me experience this miracle and remember he picked me to be a preemie mom because he knew i was strong enough.
I can not wait to meet baby Colten and i could not be more excited for my sister and Jon. They deserve this so much..They will be amazingly wonderful parents..
But today i will share a side of myself to you all that I am not proud of.
My sister is pregnant and throwing an AWESOMELY huge baby shower..and I'm jealous. So GOD DAMN jealous.. I'm jealous for so many reasons, some are petty, some i guess are a bit normal.. (i hope) .. We had our baby shower planned for November back in Ohio.. We were supposed to be going home then for thanksgiving and have the shower the Saturday after thanksgiving.. Invites were sent, decorations were bought, people had RSVP'd..
But.. Emery came before then. So no baby shower..
Everyone tried to make it right by sending gift cards and congratulation cards..but it wasn't right.
as my sister refers to it (we were robbed).. in a way i feel like we were.. and not of gifts or anything like that.. but of those moments.. measuring the belly, laughing about how i couldn't see my feet, guessing her weight.. all those things every mom wants..
There were so many things i wanted to do before Emery came rapidly into the world.. I wanted to plaster cast my belly, i wanted to have a 3d ultrasound... I wanted to be ready.
..
Emery's birthday is rapidly approaching..and i still feel guilty and jealous , very jealous of women who had no complications, could breastfeed to this one year mark.. I hope one day i will have answers as to why she came so early, but until then i will be thankful to God for letting me experience this miracle and remember he picked me to be a preemie mom because he knew i was strong enough.
I can not wait to meet baby Colten and i could not be more excited for my sister and Jon. They deserve this so much..They will be amazingly wonderful parents..
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Packing for a preemie..
Our trip home is rapidly approaching.. and I am the biggest procrastinator in the world. I'm not kidding. Since having Emery i have gotten a bit better, I am just more planned out now, My calender is filled up with appointments, calls..just about everything. I now make lists for big trips, because if i dont i will forget something, Hell even with a list i forget stuff ..
I sat down to make Our list starting with my list first.. Pretty basic clothes, shoes, make up, hair stuff.. THE END.. I make Emerys.. Cloth diapers, shoes, monitors, teething tablets, tylenol, blankets, hoodies, womb bear, sling.. the list pretty much grows.. And dont get me started on whats going into the diaper bag.. well ill give you a hint HAND SANITIZER, HAND SANITIZER oh and um MORE HAND SANITIZER. .. With swine flu and the start of RSV season right around the corner you can never be to careful which is why Emery will be accompanied by a sign from Synagis reading "Wash your hands before touching mine" although i would rather it say.. Please don't fucking touch me.. but well um. .. The Christian in me says thats not a very good idea. You see people are very attracted to Emery , The minute someone looks at her she flashes that adorable smile and it just hypnotizes people. My daughter has this charm that even i cant explain. .. I do not know where she got that from.
Today for example, we were at souplantation for dinner, Emery was in her highchair eating some of my mac and cheese and a blueberry muffin when this woman came up to me from clear across the restaurant, to tell me she had been watching my beautiful daughter eat and she has never seen a more happy baby, she said "she seems so loved" Indeed she is.. She proceeded to tell me how gorgeous Emery was and how sweet i was and then sat back down.. not more then 5 minutes later she was back up to talk to us again. She asked her age and told us that Emery's smile made her heart flutter , and that she fell in love with my daughter, and said "she should be in commercials" I smiled and said thank you. This usually happens anytime we go out, but most people arent so polite they will touch her stroke her hair let there kids touch her.. and I am usually very sweet and dont say anything but with this rsv season rapidly approaching..I am taking every precaution... Even if i have to be rude.
Ohio just you wait, your about to be charmed by miss Emery Mae.
I sat down to make Our list starting with my list first.. Pretty basic clothes, shoes, make up, hair stuff.. THE END.. I make Emerys.. Cloth diapers, shoes, monitors, teething tablets, tylenol, blankets, hoodies, womb bear, sling.. the list pretty much grows.. And dont get me started on whats going into the diaper bag.. well ill give you a hint HAND SANITIZER, HAND SANITIZER oh and um MORE HAND SANITIZER. .. With swine flu and the start of RSV season right around the corner you can never be to careful which is why Emery will be accompanied by a sign from Synagis reading "Wash your hands before touching mine" although i would rather it say.. Please don't fucking touch me.. but well um. .. The Christian in me says thats not a very good idea. You see people are very attracted to Emery , The minute someone looks at her she flashes that adorable smile and it just hypnotizes people. My daughter has this charm that even i cant explain. .. I do not know where she got that from.
Today for example, we were at souplantation for dinner, Emery was in her highchair eating some of my mac and cheese and a blueberry muffin when this woman came up to me from clear across the restaurant, to tell me she had been watching my beautiful daughter eat and she has never seen a more happy baby, she said "she seems so loved" Indeed she is.. She proceeded to tell me how gorgeous Emery was and how sweet i was and then sat back down.. not more then 5 minutes later she was back up to talk to us again. She asked her age and told us that Emery's smile made her heart flutter , and that she fell in love with my daughter, and said "she should be in commercials" I smiled and said thank you. This usually happens anytime we go out, but most people arent so polite they will touch her stroke her hair let there kids touch her.. and I am usually very sweet and dont say anything but with this rsv season rapidly approaching..I am taking every precaution... Even if i have to be rude.
Ohio just you wait, your about to be charmed by miss Emery Mae.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Daddy's little girl
J has had an awesome schedule the past 2 weeks..
The Friday before memorial day he got off at noon and he was home until Wednesday at noon.. since he was on the range for grass week Thursday and Friday he got home around 11 ..
Well Emmie is a Daddies girl through and through.. While he was home she absolutely REFUSED to take her naps.. For about the past month during her naps i would lay her in her crib awake and she would fall right to sleep without fussing (AWESOME) well when dad was home she decided that this was no longer the case. She would cry and because I do not believe a baby should be left to cry of course we instantly got her and the only way she would fall asleep was to be rocked by DADDY while she held onto his finger.. the minute he stopped rocking her she would wake up... I really thought that are awesome routine that took me months to establish had just went down the drain.. I was dreading today when Daddy had to go back to work full time especially this week because he is on the range he has to be up by 3:30 am and wont be home until 4:30 or 5 pm... Luckily Emery fell right back into her normal routine with me today once again (AWESOME) She woke up at 9 and had some oatmeal and milk for breakfast.. she had her indpendent play time and her mommy play time and then at 11:30 was ready for her nap. she slept until about 1 at 2 She had lunch chicken and noodles and some apple juice and then half a bottle and now she is taking another nap... Emery really knows how to surprise me and i love that about her.
The Friday before memorial day he got off at noon and he was home until Wednesday at noon.. since he was on the range for grass week Thursday and Friday he got home around 11 ..
Well Emmie is a Daddies girl through and through.. While he was home she absolutely REFUSED to take her naps.. For about the past month during her naps i would lay her in her crib awake and she would fall right to sleep without fussing (AWESOME) well when dad was home she decided that this was no longer the case. She would cry and because I do not believe a baby should be left to cry of course we instantly got her and the only way she would fall asleep was to be rocked by DADDY while she held onto his finger.. the minute he stopped rocking her she would wake up... I really thought that are awesome routine that took me months to establish had just went down the drain.. I was dreading today when Daddy had to go back to work full time especially this week because he is on the range he has to be up by 3:30 am and wont be home until 4:30 or 5 pm... Luckily Emery fell right back into her normal routine with me today once again (AWESOME) She woke up at 9 and had some oatmeal and milk for breakfast.. she had her indpendent play time and her mommy play time and then at 11:30 was ready for her nap. she slept until about 1 at 2 She had lunch chicken and noodles and some apple juice and then half a bottle and now she is taking another nap... Emery really knows how to surprise me and i love that about her.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
44 miles
Everyday when Emery was in the NICU we drove 44 miles to see her, and 44 miles back home. We sometimes made this trip 2-3 times a day.. Today i drove those same 44 miles to take Emery to her pediatric optamology appointment.. It went great she does NOT need glasses.
Man i love good news.
Emery's nurse Jeff met us for the appointment since J couldn't come to help me out since her eyes needed to be dialated. It was so awesome having him there and it just reminds me how many people love Emery and care about her.. After her appointment i wanted to go to the NICU.. So Jeff walked me down there.. As i walked those same corridors i couldnt help but get anxious, my heart started beating fast, my blood pressuer sky rocketed , i felt sick to my stomach.. I remember walking down that corridor everyday for nearly 2 months wondering when i would walk down that corridor with my daughter in my arms.. Now i was strolling down the corridor with my huge 10 month old and a smile on my face, but it still made me sick.. No one was working that took care of Emery but i ran into our social worker who was in charge of are case ( they help military with leave and insurance stuff) She was SHOCKED at how big Emmie was and just gushed about how cute and happy Emmie is.. I cant explain how happy it makes me when people say she is huge!
There was one MAJOR thing that made the trip a little depressing.. The NICU had to move down a hall to expand.. EXPAND.. Which means they have more and more preemies.. It is up to us to fight to end prematurity.. Visit the March Of Dimes website, and find out what you can do to help. 1 in 8 babies are born premature.. be there voice.
Man i love good news.
Emery's nurse Jeff met us for the appointment since J couldn't come to help me out since her eyes needed to be dialated. It was so awesome having him there and it just reminds me how many people love Emery and care about her.. After her appointment i wanted to go to the NICU.. So Jeff walked me down there.. As i walked those same corridors i couldnt help but get anxious, my heart started beating fast, my blood pressuer sky rocketed , i felt sick to my stomach.. I remember walking down that corridor everyday for nearly 2 months wondering when i would walk down that corridor with my daughter in my arms.. Now i was strolling down the corridor with my huge 10 month old and a smile on my face, but it still made me sick.. No one was working that took care of Emery but i ran into our social worker who was in charge of are case ( they help military with leave and insurance stuff) She was SHOCKED at how big Emmie was and just gushed about how cute and happy Emmie is.. I cant explain how happy it makes me when people say she is huge!
There was one MAJOR thing that made the trip a little depressing.. The NICU had to move down a hall to expand.. EXPAND.. Which means they have more and more preemies.. It is up to us to fight to end prematurity.. Visit the March Of Dimes website, and find out what you can do to help. 1 in 8 babies are born premature.. be there voice.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
What can i do?
When Emery was born premature i had many people who didnt know how to act around us, or what to say to us.... Well i have compiled some ideas of things you can do to help or say to a family that has recently had a preemie..
- Say Congrats, it may seem quite simple but many people forget, Remember although are baby was born smaller and most likely not so healthy, this is still an amazing moment for us and we are Happy!
- If they have other kids, ask if you can take them out for the day so mom and dad can relax a bit and also most young children cant come into the NICU, so finding time to go to the Nicu with other children can be tough.
- Make some dinners for them, casseroles are awesome. Something they can reheat and not have to worry about remember anything is better then hospital food!!!
- Ask if you can help them with laundry, When Emery was in the hospital we were only home to sleep and eat(on occasion) so the chores piled up, we had to catch up on 6 weeks worth of laundry!! Even doing one load for them can be such a blessing.
- Do not get mad if they do not return your phonecalls or emails, this time is very difficult it is filled with so many emotions, and it is hard to get back to all the people who are wondering how everything is.
- Or volunteer to send out a mass email or text for them with some details.. "Hi this is so and so paula and j would like you to know that Emery is doing well , they have increased her feeds and she has even gained a few ounces, please keep baby Emery in your prayers!" something like that!
- Put together a NICU gift basket.. include some things like lotion(frequent handwashing for weeks on end ugh), A comfy pillow (those hospital chairs get stiff), Nursing pads for mama, some soft blankets for baby... there are so many things you can add and you can get many of these things from the dollar store! It doesnt have to be expensive or big just shows that you care!
- Remember that Dad is just as effected by this as mom is, i think many people forgot this with my husband..
- Most of all just be there to lend a helping hand, a few kind words.. and a Prayer.
Preemie mommies feel free to add more in the comments!
- Say Congrats, it may seem quite simple but many people forget, Remember although are baby was born smaller and most likely not so healthy, this is still an amazing moment for us and we are Happy!
- If they have other kids, ask if you can take them out for the day so mom and dad can relax a bit and also most young children cant come into the NICU, so finding time to go to the Nicu with other children can be tough.
- Make some dinners for them, casseroles are awesome. Something they can reheat and not have to worry about remember anything is better then hospital food!!!
- Ask if you can help them with laundry, When Emery was in the hospital we were only home to sleep and eat(on occasion) so the chores piled up, we had to catch up on 6 weeks worth of laundry!! Even doing one load for them can be such a blessing.
- Do not get mad if they do not return your phonecalls or emails, this time is very difficult it is filled with so many emotions, and it is hard to get back to all the people who are wondering how everything is.
- Or volunteer to send out a mass email or text for them with some details.. "Hi this is so and so paula and j would like you to know that Emery is doing well , they have increased her feeds and she has even gained a few ounces, please keep baby Emery in your prayers!" something like that!
- Put together a NICU gift basket.. include some things like lotion(frequent handwashing for weeks on end ugh), A comfy pillow (those hospital chairs get stiff), Nursing pads for mama, some soft blankets for baby... there are so many things you can add and you can get many of these things from the dollar store! It doesnt have to be expensive or big just shows that you care!
- Remember that Dad is just as effected by this as mom is, i think many people forgot this with my husband..
- Most of all just be there to lend a helping hand, a few kind words.. and a Prayer.
Preemie mommies feel free to add more in the comments!
Monday, August 24, 2009
another baby??
J and I are often asked when do we want to have our next child. I would be lying if i said i didnt think about it. I do quite frequently. Many women i know from babycenter who have an October 08 baby are pregnant again or are trying, which blows my mind props to you ladies because i could not deal with 2 under 2! or 2 under 1 for that matter!
At this point we are not even sure we want another, next time around will be very difficult i will be a highrisk prenancy, and knowing that we also know that it means lots of bedrest. So if we decided to have another one we would want Emery to be at an age where she doesnt rely on me 24/7 and can play with friends , so most likely if we decide to have another one, Emery will be 4 or 5 at LEAST. J is very much in love with Emery, she is everything to him and its obvious anytime those 2 are in the room together they almost light eachother up, and i love that. I had the same connection with my dad. J would be 100% content with Just Emery and So would I, so i guess only time will tell.
At this point we are not even sure we want another, next time around will be very difficult i will be a highrisk prenancy, and knowing that we also know that it means lots of bedrest. So if we decided to have another one we would want Emery to be at an age where she doesnt rely on me 24/7 and can play with friends , so most likely if we decide to have another one, Emery will be 4 or 5 at LEAST. J is very much in love with Emery, she is everything to him and its obvious anytime those 2 are in the room together they almost light eachother up, and i love that. I had the same connection with my dad. J would be 100% content with Just Emery and So would I, so i guess only time will tell.
Monday, August 17, 2009
If i had known then...
This is a picture of me at 29 weeks 4 days.. The day before i gave birth to Emery...
I actually remember taking this picture i remember thinking.. Wow my body looks so beautiful, I can not wait to meet her... (i could have waited a bit longer though)
Sometimes i wish i could have known, maybe then i could have prepared myself mentally..
Maybe my mom could have been there to hold my hand with j and help me push...
Maybe i could have gotten that first dose of steroid shots that way she could have had the recommended 2 dosages to help her lungs mature..
Maybe i would have had all the birth certificate papers and all the other papers already filled out that way i wouldnt have had to spend 2 hours after giving birth trying to remember stupid things like my address and social lol (i really forgot my social)
Maybe i would have been more prepared..or maybe not..
9 1/2 months later and i still have a tremendous amount of guilt.
I know she is doing AMAZINGLY well but it still hurts, every month for 8 months out of the year she has to get a shot that healthy newborns dont have to...she has to see special doctors to check her progress..any little cough or cold could mean a hospital stay..
We have all been through alot. My sister is pregnant, she has a condition known as a incompetent cervix...chances are she will also deliver prematurely..I can only hope that our experience keeps her strong and that she lets faith guide her way.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Some of the best people
Have you ever noticed that some of the best people in your life came out during the worst times..
When Emery was in the hospital i met some of the most amazing people who i still care about deeply and who care about Emery as well as J and myself. One of Emery's nurses was an awesome guy named Jeff he is a corpsman in the navy and the same age as me so we naturally got along great, he loves Emery he would sing to her and rock her when we weren't there, he made the sign that went on her isolette that said her name, That sign meant so much to me, more then he will probably ever realize it made me feel comfortable that someone cared about my little girl whom they JUST met enough to make her a beautiful sign I still have the sign and it will be in her baby book right next to a picture of Jeff holding her on the day she graduated. We have seen Jeff since then a few times, but we talk to him a lot through facebook, myspace we run into him on occasion on the beach. We all love him so much and he loves Emery, and that means the world to me.
Another amazing person was her primary nurse Nicole, she was amazing she loved Emery and she would call me to tell me to bring more milk or just to tell me that Emery was waiting for us.. she was in a hospital 40 miles from our house. She was always amazing to us explaining anything that needed to be done or medical terms we didn't understand she loved Emery like she was her own child , having people care for my child that loved her meant the world to me.. When we left the nicu Nicole gave us some awesome gifts our favorite is a bracelet that Emery wears all the time that says her name in sterling silver with pearls and svarosky crystals.. Its beautiful and every time i look at it i am reminded of the love from Nicole.
I am so thankful for the people in our lives. We have truly been blessed. I can not wait for Emery to look back and see how total strangers fell in love with her and cared for her and helped her to thrive. I know that she will forever be grateful for the love she has been shown.
When Emery was in the hospital i met some of the most amazing people who i still care about deeply and who care about Emery as well as J and myself. One of Emery's nurses was an awesome guy named Jeff he is a corpsman in the navy and the same age as me so we naturally got along great, he loves Emery he would sing to her and rock her when we weren't there, he made the sign that went on her isolette that said her name, That sign meant so much to me, more then he will probably ever realize it made me feel comfortable that someone cared about my little girl whom they JUST met enough to make her a beautiful sign I still have the sign and it will be in her baby book right next to a picture of Jeff holding her on the day she graduated. We have seen Jeff since then a few times, but we talk to him a lot through facebook, myspace we run into him on occasion on the beach. We all love him so much and he loves Emery, and that means the world to me.
Another amazing person was her primary nurse Nicole, she was amazing she loved Emery and she would call me to tell me to bring more milk or just to tell me that Emery was waiting for us.. she was in a hospital 40 miles from our house. She was always amazing to us explaining anything that needed to be done or medical terms we didn't understand she loved Emery like she was her own child , having people care for my child that loved her meant the world to me.. When we left the nicu Nicole gave us some awesome gifts our favorite is a bracelet that Emery wears all the time that says her name in sterling silver with pearls and svarosky crystals.. Its beautiful and every time i look at it i am reminded of the love from Nicole.
I am so thankful for the people in our lives. We have truly been blessed. I can not wait for Emery to look back and see how total strangers fell in love with her and cared for her and helped her to thrive. I know that she will forever be grateful for the love she has been shown.
Monday, August 10, 2009
OHIO!
Emery and I our flying home next month for 11 days to see our families J isn't coming because he is saving his leave for the holidays and my birthday. I have to thank my wonderful sister in law for using her frequent flier miles to fly us home so amazingly sweet, because otherwise i couldn't go home for a while it is just to expensive! This trip is very important to me because my brother and sister in law and my nephew all just moved back to Ohio and they have yet to meet Emery and i haven't seen them in almost 2 years!! Also my husbands sister is due around when we go home with her 2nd child my 8th nephew.. AND... My sister is pregnant and she is due to get her surgery for her incompetent cervix while I'm home so I'm going to be their for her!
As excited as i am for this trip i am NERVOUS. We flew with emery when she was 4 months but J was with me and Emery slept the whole time now she is a crazy 9 month old who wants to explore everything.. And a layover in Chicago meaning my first flight is close to 6 hours long (insert surprised smiley here) I also have to make sure that I can get Emery her synagis before i leave or while we are home.. RSV is something I'm not willing to risk! Now I'm trying to figure out how many cloth diapers i will need for the flight..how to pack all my cloth diapers plus our clothes and not go over 50 lbs...ahhhh.. can you tell I'm stressed.. I'm sure it will all work out!
and hey maybe while were home Emery will finally crawl!
On another note..I'm still waiting on the referral for the pediatric optamologist...ugh
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
why is it..
why is it that people always feel the need to give you parenting advice when your not asking for it..
I always thought my parents and siblings would be the ones to do this but they do not (which i love) unless i call with a specific question they usually always support my parenting decisions (have i mentioned i love my family) However most everytime we go out at least one person feels the need to a baby advocate and give me some crazy parenting advice ..
like today at chipoltle we gave Emery a paper menu to play with she loves paper and it keeps her busy so she was playing with it and flailing it around.. and the lady in front of us turns around and says "she is going to poke herself in the eye with that" i replied with , her own nails do more damage.... when she realized i didnt care what she had to say she bent down to emerys height in her stroller and said i just dont want to see you get hurt (implying what exactly...that i did!) lol.. i always just dismiss peoples comments but i couldnt help but laugh when she asked emerys age and then replied with wow she is SO BIG for 9 months.... (hmm i can honestly say I HAVE NEVER HEARD THAT ABOUT HER) normally its oh she is so small blah blah blah..
some other shitty advice i have gotten...
"you shouldnt wear your baby like an accesory" this was directed at me while carrying emery in a moby at seaworld
i have gotten way more but i cant think ..i need sleep
off to bed!
I always thought my parents and siblings would be the ones to do this but they do not (which i love) unless i call with a specific question they usually always support my parenting decisions (have i mentioned i love my family) However most everytime we go out at least one person feels the need to a baby advocate and give me some crazy parenting advice ..
like today at chipoltle we gave Emery a paper menu to play with she loves paper and it keeps her busy so she was playing with it and flailing it around.. and the lady in front of us turns around and says "she is going to poke herself in the eye with that" i replied with , her own nails do more damage.... when she realized i didnt care what she had to say she bent down to emerys height in her stroller and said i just dont want to see you get hurt (implying what exactly...that i did!) lol.. i always just dismiss peoples comments but i couldnt help but laugh when she asked emerys age and then replied with wow she is SO BIG for 9 months.... (hmm i can honestly say I HAVE NEVER HEARD THAT ABOUT HER) normally its oh she is so small blah blah blah..
some other shitty advice i have gotten...
"you shouldnt wear your baby like an accesory" this was directed at me while carrying emery in a moby at seaworld
i have gotten way more but i cant think ..i need sleep
off to bed!
9 month check up
( Im pretty sure i have a senior picture where im striking this exact pose lol)
Emery had her 9 month well baby yesterday she ways a big 18 lbs even and she is 27.5 inches MY oh My has she grown! The doctor noticed that Emery's right eye turns inwards its a condition called esotropia and she may need glasses, we have to wait for her appointment with the eye doctor to be sure but either way.. I think she would look cute in glasses! He checked her ears and there was no fluid so the amoxicillian a few weeks ago did its job yay!
I will be back later with a better post...hopefully
Thursday, July 30, 2009
peek a boo
Emery loves peek a boo before we would put the blanket over her head and then pull it down and so on and so forth and she loved it.. NOW she is doing it on her own.. (note i helped put the blanket in her hand but she was the one pulling it up and down you can see her little hands at work) Sorry for it being sideways !!!
9 months!
Letter to Emmie
Today my dear you are 9 months old, it is amazing how much you have grown! We are so unbelievably lucky to have you in our lives. You are so strong and sometimes i believe you are stronger then me. I always thought that when you turned 9 months old i would be saying something along the lines of.."wow now you have officially been outside the womb just as long as you were in" but that happened when you were 6 1/2 months old! You have amazed me in so many ways learning so quickly showing no signs that you were premature! Even in the NICU your Doctors referred to you as the preemie who refused to believe she was a preemie (this always made me and your daddi laugh) I am so proud of you Emmiesauras, you continue to amaze me everyday!
Monday, July 27, 2009
a vent.
I don't bitch to often... Okay who am i kidding i bitch A LOT ;-)
Certain things every once in a while just get under my skin, and they linger there until i blow up.
Here is my latest urk..
One thing i have always hated was the comments i got for having a baby so young even though we were married and the pregnancy was planned, people just don't understand why i would want to "miss out on so much stuff" personally i don't feel i have missed out on anything! Young parents always get a bad rap, people say things like "their parents are actually raising their child" and "you shouldn't have a child if your not financially stable" And for once i actually know why people feel this way!
I am friends with many people on facebook and myspace many whom i attended highschool with, a lot of them have just recently had their first child..and they all seem to have one thing in common...They always update their status with things like "last night was so awesome , im so hungover i dont remember a thing" or they post pictures of them getting wasted with their friends... This really really pisses me off.. I understand the occasional party but posting about it every weekend .. WHO THE HELL IS TAKING CARE OF YOUR CHILD OBVIOUSLY NOT YOU! Why have a child if your not ready to take on the responsibility of being a parent. It makes me sick! the best quote ever "remember your not managing an inconveinence your raising a child"
My daughter and my husband are my entire world, and i love that!
Certain things every once in a while just get under my skin, and they linger there until i blow up.
Here is my latest urk..
One thing i have always hated was the comments i got for having a baby so young even though we were married and the pregnancy was planned, people just don't understand why i would want to "miss out on so much stuff" personally i don't feel i have missed out on anything! Young parents always get a bad rap, people say things like "their parents are actually raising their child" and "you shouldn't have a child if your not financially stable" And for once i actually know why people feel this way!
I am friends with many people on facebook and myspace many whom i attended highschool with, a lot of them have just recently had their first child..and they all seem to have one thing in common...They always update their status with things like "last night was so awesome , im so hungover i dont remember a thing" or they post pictures of them getting wasted with their friends... This really really pisses me off.. I understand the occasional party but posting about it every weekend .. WHO THE HELL IS TAKING CARE OF YOUR CHILD OBVIOUSLY NOT YOU! Why have a child if your not ready to take on the responsibility of being a parent. It makes me sick! the best quote ever "remember your not managing an inconveinence your raising a child"
My daughter and my husband are my entire world, and i love that!
Friday, July 24, 2009
could it be?
A few weeks ago we took Emery to the dr for a fever which was a double ear infection, while we were there i asked her ped to bump up our dosage of zantac for her reflux which he did we also discussed switching medicines if the new dosage didnt help. Well since the NICU i have always been afraid of giving emery medicine dont ask, i also dont like taking medicine. Anyways since she was on the penicillian i figured i would wait till she was done with the antibiotics before giving the zantac again...10 days later and i realized emery hadnt had a wet burp or spit up at all in those 10 days.. now 3 weeks later and still her horrible gas is gone, she hasnt been spiting up she stopped arching her back while feeding! Im shocked could it be her reflux has finally went away!!! I am so happy. I am hoping this isnt some crazy fluke and that it has finally gone away for her sake reflux sucked!
In other news the reflux may be gone but the teething is bad, she hasnt cut any teeth but her gums feel very lumpy thank the lord for hylands teething tablets and sophie the giraffe.. because without those 2 products emery would be a very grumpy young lady...
well im off to sleep now that emery is finally asleep and ill update later with some awesome new pictures
In other news the reflux may be gone but the teething is bad, she hasnt cut any teeth but her gums feel very lumpy thank the lord for hylands teething tablets and sophie the giraffe.. because without those 2 products emery would be a very grumpy young lady...
well im off to sleep now that emery is finally asleep and ill update later with some awesome new pictures
Monday, July 13, 2009
TOYS!
Okay so, I'm really into the latest and greatest baby products. Actually I'm a bit obsessive so i thought i would post some of my favorite toys for babies that well everyone can afford!
Sophie the Giraffe (http://www.sophie.sg/)
Sophie is awesome she is a bit pricey for what she is but well worth it
she is super soft giraffe that has a squeaker in the head and belly so she makes a fun sound when squeezed, she is so super light that even the smallest of babies can grip her.. She is made out of heavea tree sap and food coloring dye so she is safe for the babies to put in there mouth. She is an awesome teething toy. ( read all the awesome specs about her on the website)
Fisher Price crawl ball (http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2935954)
This thing is awesome the monkey wobbles around the ball and makes playfull sounds and encourages babies to crawl, even my non crawler loves this toy and rolls around with it.. best thing is its price i think we paid $11 for it at Wal-mart
Grabbitz ball by manhattan toys (http://www.manhattantoy.com/product/206644/204280/_/Grabbitz_Ball)
This toy is awesome, it has lots of things to stimulate baby the grabby parts have crinkly paper and awesome textures, and has a squeakie toy attached.. We bought ours from babies-r-us for $18
Fisher Price stacking rings (http://www.fisher-price.com/fp.aspx?st=2341&e=detail&pcat=bubrilliant&pid=23)
This is a tried and true toy, you probably even played with one as a child! These stacking rings are great for baby to knock over, pick up and just have a ball with.. best thing is they go for about $7 at most stores!
Leap frog baby counting pal (http://www.leapfrog.com/en/infant_and_toddler/babypal.html)
This soft plush toy can attatch to your stroller or highchair for baby to play, it has a bunch of different options colors, counting, music, abc's and has fun objects on it for baby to play with usually goes for about $15 in stores!
I will add more as i go but i do not like to blog about toys we haven't tried and there are many on the market that i would still like to get to!
If you live in california check out Geppetos toys, They have the most helpful staff and awesome toys!
Sophie the Giraffe (http://www.sophie.sg/)
Sophie is awesome she is a bit pricey for what she is but well worth it
she is super soft giraffe that has a squeaker in the head and belly so she makes a fun sound when squeezed, she is so super light that even the smallest of babies can grip her.. She is made out of heavea tree sap and food coloring dye so she is safe for the babies to put in there mouth. She is an awesome teething toy. ( read all the awesome specs about her on the website)
Fisher Price crawl ball (http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2935954)
This thing is awesome the monkey wobbles around the ball and makes playfull sounds and encourages babies to crawl, even my non crawler loves this toy and rolls around with it.. best thing is its price i think we paid $11 for it at Wal-mart
Grabbitz ball by manhattan toys (http://www.manhattantoy.com/product/206644/204280/_/Grabbitz_Ball)
This toy is awesome, it has lots of things to stimulate baby the grabby parts have crinkly paper and awesome textures, and has a squeakie toy attached.. We bought ours from babies-r-us for $18
Fisher Price stacking rings (http://www.fisher-price.com/fp.aspx?st=2341&e=detail&pcat=bubrilliant&pid=23)
This is a tried and true toy, you probably even played with one as a child! These stacking rings are great for baby to knock over, pick up and just have a ball with.. best thing is they go for about $7 at most stores!
Leap frog baby counting pal (http://www.leapfrog.com/en/infant_and_toddler/babypal.html)
This soft plush toy can attatch to your stroller or highchair for baby to play, it has a bunch of different options colors, counting, music, abc's and has fun objects on it for baby to play with usually goes for about $15 in stores!
I will add more as i go but i do not like to blog about toys we haven't tried and there are many on the market that i would still like to get to!
If you live in california check out Geppetos toys, They have the most helpful staff and awesome toys!
Friday, July 10, 2009
sleeping
has become non-existant as of lately.. One day Emery will be her normal amazing sleeper self.. like the other day when she went to bed at 6:30 pm woke up at 4 am for a bottle and then slept until 10:15 am..then there are days like this where she wants nothing to do with sleep
Fell asleep around 9pm woke up at 1:45 am it is now 2:39 am and she has had a bottle and is now being rocked and is still wide awake...
It is so unlike her to have such terrible sleep patterns, hopefully it passes just as quickly as it came.
It sucks because since j has to work early im always the one up with her and it seems i get less sleep then him as of late.
Cloth diapering has been going great, I am seriously happy about making the choice to switch. I love seeing her little booty all fluffy! Plus i think she likes them better they are extremely soft so im sure it would be amazing. I am now pretty much addicted to cloth diapers and spend way to much time reading about the different kinds, looking at new ones i want and looking at what accesories i need. There are still a few things.
On to other things, Emery is so close to crawling i keep saying this but i just feel like it will come any day now.. Her new accomplishment is scooting her but further and further down in her bouncer until it touches the floor and she is sitting then she rolls herself over on to her belly and plays.. She is crazy ! It is histerical to watch but also nervewracking. I used to be able to let her sit in her bouncer while i used the bathroom or got chores done.. Not anymore.. I know your saying "what about the harness? Strap her in?" Well you see i would do that, i have tried that and it leads to Screaming and thrashing around turning herself sideways and just a big struggle. I figure since she isnt hurting herself pushing herself out and Im always around her, even if im in the bathroom i can hear her and anywhere else in the house i can see her from.
Her newest obsession is her feet! She has been trying to reach them for a few weeks now but just last week figured out how to get them easily and now she is constantly doing it. In her bouncer, in the bathtub (picture attached), in her car seat, on the floor, during diaper changes(which actually helps) its cute as hell.
I have been pretty homesick lately..summer was always so awesome in ohio. Everyone had cookouts the family was always together doing something or another.My family is unlike any other, and i honestly mean that. They are crazy and wild and always know how to have fun. I just miss being able to be crazy with them. I can tell J misses them too..
Emery has her high risk infant check up on monday at the hospital where she stayed in the Nicu... It is her 6 month (corrected age) check up. I will let you all know how it goes. Im excited but also nervous for that drive ugh... I hate driving there even as a passenger (which is honestly worse) speaking of my driving anxiety i finally made an apt for myself a few weeks ago July 20th.. Hopefully that goes good! Anyways it is 2:50 emery is still WIDE AWAKE! here is hoping i can manage to get at least 4 hours of sleep tonight.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
8 months!
Emery turned 8 months old yesterday! I can't believe how fast the time has flown by with her. When everyone told me to cherish every moment, i never really thought it would fly by like they said.. But It has!
Emery is doing much better, her infection is almost completely gone, she hasn't had a fever in days and her appetite has gotten even bigger :piggy piggy: We are going through some crazy sleep habits at the moment though, because Emery has learned how to roll and move however she wants she wakes up in the middle of the night rolls and scoots all over her crib (lowering the mattress this weekend) I am hoping her awesome sleep habits return soon, because we have never ever had a problem with her sleeping through the night and i would hate for it to happen now lol.
In other news, starting cloth diapers in a few days, which im pretty stoked about (thanks mom and dad for helping start are collection) as many of you know there not cheap to start but way worth it in the long run, i wish i wouldnt have waited so long but oh well! Still lowering my carbon footprint.
Sorry this blog post was kinda boring today.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Being Mommy
Being mommy means so many things... here is just MY little list of what
"Being mommy" means
Being mommy means
- that the diaper bag has everything for any situation from diapers to jumper cables and everything in between
- In stead of carring around that cute coach clutch you got last year , you now carry around a bag big enough to be an airplane carryon.
- your ipod isnt just filled with your favorite tunes, it now has a category of baby lullabies and soothing sounds along with some classical music.
- your child owns more shoes then you do( i never thought that was possible)
- You would rather spend money on an outfit or toy for your child then treating yourself to a manicure or a new bra that you desperately need.
- You cry more then your child when they get shots or hurt themselves
- You have more numbers in your phonebook that are for your child then you have of your own friends and family.
- You have gone more then 3 days without a shower, and you dont really care.
- You now look up the newest cool baby product instead of looking up the newest fashion trends.
- You get excited when you get a coupon in the mail for $3 off a pack of pampers.
- You stopped buying your own lotion and started using the babies because well hey it smells good and you have lots of it!
- You have tasted every baby food, even the apples and ham dinner, because well...just because.
- You have at least once had puke in your mouth that wasnt yours..
- You love your little one unconditionally and cant even remember what life was like before they entered the world.
This is my list of what being a mother means to me.
Emery is my world, she is everything i have ever wanted.. She is my hero
(sorry for the video being so dark!)
"Being mommy" means
Being mommy means
- that the diaper bag has everything for any situation from diapers to jumper cables and everything in between
- In stead of carring around that cute coach clutch you got last year , you now carry around a bag big enough to be an airplane carryon.
- your ipod isnt just filled with your favorite tunes, it now has a category of baby lullabies and soothing sounds along with some classical music.
- your child owns more shoes then you do( i never thought that was possible)
- You would rather spend money on an outfit or toy for your child then treating yourself to a manicure or a new bra that you desperately need.
- You cry more then your child when they get shots or hurt themselves
- You have more numbers in your phonebook that are for your child then you have of your own friends and family.
- You have gone more then 3 days without a shower, and you dont really care.
- You now look up the newest cool baby product instead of looking up the newest fashion trends.
- You get excited when you get a coupon in the mail for $3 off a pack of pampers.
- You stopped buying your own lotion and started using the babies because well hey it smells good and you have lots of it!
- You have tasted every baby food, even the apples and ham dinner, because well...just because.
- You have at least once had puke in your mouth that wasnt yours..
- You love your little one unconditionally and cant even remember what life was like before they entered the world.
This is my list of what being a mother means to me.
Emery is my world, she is everything i have ever wanted.. She is my hero
(sorry for the video being so dark!)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
My little fighter
Emery has proven from the moment she entered this world that she was a litle fighter (gets that from her daddie)
Yesterday she had a bad fever, and i got her into see the doctor today..
she has an infection her cheeks are red and puffy and so are her eyes. She has fluid in her ears and a tiny bit in her lungs. We were given Amoxicillin and while we were there they bumped up our zantac (yay). The dr seemed a little concerened stating that if things progressed to bring her in tomorrow that way she can be evaluated further.
I hate not being able to just make her better, i cant feel her pain, all i can feel is the heat radiating off of her from the high fever. I am sitting in the living room bouncing her in her bouncer while she sleeps (her favorite way to fall asleep)
She is trully my inspiration, my little hero. I never knew that the biggest most inspiring thing in my life would be a 3 lb 12 oz little girl.
I hope she recovers quickly , because although i know she could handle another hospital stay
Im just not sure if i could. Im not as strong as her.
Yesterday she had a bad fever, and i got her into see the doctor today..
she has an infection her cheeks are red and puffy and so are her eyes. She has fluid in her ears and a tiny bit in her lungs. We were given Amoxicillin and while we were there they bumped up our zantac (yay). The dr seemed a little concerened stating that if things progressed to bring her in tomorrow that way she can be evaluated further.
I hate not being able to just make her better, i cant feel her pain, all i can feel is the heat radiating off of her from the high fever. I am sitting in the living room bouncing her in her bouncer while she sleeps (her favorite way to fall asleep)
She is trully my inspiration, my little hero. I never knew that the biggest most inspiring thing in my life would be a 3 lb 12 oz little girl.
I hope she recovers quickly , because although i know she could handle another hospital stay
Im just not sure if i could. Im not as strong as her.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Awake
I am up
Wide awake
because Emery has a fever of 101.6
It is always scary when something is wrong with your child no matter there age, i remember being 16 with pink eye in both eyes, and my mom bringing me home anything to make it better and my dad staying home from his odd jobs to be with me..
When Emery shows any signs of illness i immediately go in to panic mode!
Whats wrong? how? why? when? what do i do?
I read all these books about the ages and what constitutes as a fever
But, do i go by corrected or actual for temperature, or do i meet somewhere in the middle
There is no book that comes with having a preemie, no one to tell you exactly what to do in a particular situation..
Sometimes i feel a tremendous amount of guilt over having her so early, I even have dreams or well nightmares about it..Why was my body incapable of holding her for 40 weeks? Why didn't i just go to the doctors even when they told me i wasn't in labor and i just KNEW i was ?
WHY WHY WHY?
I have so many questions and no answers, i suppose i will never get the answers.
But maybe that is what God wants..
He wanted to show us a miracle in the shape of a 3lb baby girl.
So now i am up cherishing my miracle, wondering , worrying.. about everything.
I hope this fever breaks and that we dont need to do another hospital stay
I don't think J or I could handle another hospital stay.. and i dont want to see emery hooked up to a monitor for a long long time.
Wide awake
because Emery has a fever of 101.6
It is always scary when something is wrong with your child no matter there age, i remember being 16 with pink eye in both eyes, and my mom bringing me home anything to make it better and my dad staying home from his odd jobs to be with me..
When Emery shows any signs of illness i immediately go in to panic mode!
Whats wrong? how? why? when? what do i do?
I read all these books about the ages and what constitutes as a fever
But, do i go by corrected or actual for temperature, or do i meet somewhere in the middle
There is no book that comes with having a preemie, no one to tell you exactly what to do in a particular situation..
Sometimes i feel a tremendous amount of guilt over having her so early, I even have dreams or well nightmares about it..Why was my body incapable of holding her for 40 weeks? Why didn't i just go to the doctors even when they told me i wasn't in labor and i just KNEW i was ?
WHY WHY WHY?
I have so many questions and no answers, i suppose i will never get the answers.
But maybe that is what God wants..
He wanted to show us a miracle in the shape of a 3lb baby girl.
So now i am up cherishing my miracle, wondering , worrying.. about everything.
I hope this fever breaks and that we dont need to do another hospital stay
I don't think J or I could handle another hospital stay.. and i dont want to see emery hooked up to a monitor for a long long time.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
BIG
Friday the nurse came
16 lbs 7 oz
I was shocked! Somehow overnight my little preemie has turned into this
Vibrant, Happy, Gorgeous, TINY TODDLER
The nurse gave me some amazing news, news that i always dread at these appointments
Emery is on track with her actual age, actually even a little advanced. Were not even going by
her corrected age anymore except for the growth charts. What mom wouldnt want to hear that!
We have bumped up her solids, but i have to be really careful because the reflux has gotten worse so i have to be careful what i give her and the acidity content so no more carrots sorry Emmie i know those are your favorite.
Emery has been very lovey lately, smiling at us whenever she sees us! Cuddling with us whenever we pick her up, the other morning Emmie and I were laying in bed napping and she looked up at me and there was SO much love in her eyes. She can't speak but with just that look i could tell she was saying. Mom, I love you! It made me cry , but i snapped a picture before that its the one at the top of the page, because for some strange reason i cant get pictures to go at the bottom or the middle URGH!
We also bought a new car YAY! 07 chrsyler sebring its beautiful and luxurious, im very happy that it wont be such a struggle to put Emery in the car!
Okay well that is all for this post, hopefully some more interesting stuff happens soon so i can stop boring you all !
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Thursday, June 18, 2009
update
Sorry i am a little behind! Emery's nicu reunion was on saturday, it went great! I got to see so many people we havent seen in a while even some babies that came in right before we were about to leave. The only nurse we didn't get to see was Nicole, Emerys primary. She works night shifts so its kinda hard to come to day functions.
In other news. J may not be deployed!!! I cant explain how great that is. I dont want to jinx myself though because WHO KNOWS!
Anyways the deployment was supposed to be in january for 12-13 months. But they pushed it back to May 2010, and J is supposed to get out in June 2011 and techincally you have to be back stateside 90 days before your day out.. so he is undeployable. But they could decide to make him go 6 months.. So , i guess i shouldnt get my hopes up.
Tomorrow Emerys nurse comes to check on her and see how she is doing, I am excited because last time she came Emery was super closed to rolling but not quite there. So I am sure Sam will be excited to see how well she is doing now!
So time to guess Emerys weight.. she was 14 lbs 9 oz last month. Im really not sure how this is gonna go Im thinking she is 15 lbs 6 oz or so but she feels Heavier I just dont know!
It's almost time to upgrade to a new car seat, im looking at the Graco my ride 65, the britax are nice but they are so darn expensive. And the Graco actually looks awesome! Anyone have that one any suggestions!
Also were going car shopping this weekend , we NEED a 4 door. So saturday were going to test drive the Kia Soul Im pretty pumped!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
HOLY ROLLER
Emery has been super close to rolling for the past 2 weeks.. She learned how to roll from tummy to back rather quickly since she hated tummy time. But , never even attempted to roll from back to tummy until the past couple weeks. Aparently It all just clicked this week. She rolled for the first time and hasnt stopped since then. And now she is like super close to crawling. Where did my little girl go! Man i thought i still had some time to baby proof apparently not!!! I need to get on that.
On another note, Today is beautiful, One of those days that i wish i had a back yard or at least a patio/balcony. I wish i could just sit on the balcony with Emery in her bouncer and enjoy the fresh air.
Emerys reflux has gotten worse, its evident as of lately the back arching, the clawing at the bottle, and the hiccups are all happening again :-( . Guess i need to call the ped, hopefully its just a simple up the dosage type thing. I really dont want to try any other medicines.
On another note, Today is beautiful, One of those days that i wish i had a back yard or at least a patio/balcony. I wish i could just sit on the balcony with Emery in her bouncer and enjoy the fresh air.
Emerys reflux has gotten worse, its evident as of lately the back arching, the clawing at the bottle, and the hiccups are all happening again :-( . Guess i need to call the ped, hopefully its just a simple up the dosage type thing. I really dont want to try any other medicines.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
snocones
Yesterday was J's Military Family Fun day... It was mandatory
I never thought i would here mandatory and fun in the same sentence, but well its the military ha ha. Anyways it was fun, free food and raffles! The best part was... They had a snowcone machine, so J got us both a snocone , Emery decided she wanted some so we let her she was opening her mouth so wide and just shoving the ice in her mouth, she was loving it. We would take it away and she would start crying , im guessing it felt great on her teething gums. I never thought i would see a baby gum a snocone to death ahaha it ended up all over her but it was fun! And we took her in the pool, this time i got well a couple pictures. Then i decided i should teach Emery to stick out her tounge , it took a couple trys but she got it , damn proud over here. Next saturday is the NICU reunion, im excited... I think. Here are some pictures from yesterday!
I never thought i would here mandatory and fun in the same sentence, but well its the military ha ha. Anyways it was fun, free food and raffles! The best part was... They had a snowcone machine, so J got us both a snocone , Emery decided she wanted some so we let her she was opening her mouth so wide and just shoving the ice in her mouth, she was loving it. We would take it away and she would start crying , im guessing it felt great on her teething gums. I never thought i would see a baby gum a snocone to death ahaha it ended up all over her but it was fun! And we took her in the pool, this time i got well a couple pictures. Then i decided i should teach Emery to stick out her tounge , it took a couple trys but she got it , damn proud over here. Next saturday is the NICU reunion, im excited... I think. Here are some pictures from yesterday!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Emery is
A daddies girl! J comes home for lunch everyday and plays with Emery the whole time he is home. So the moment he leaves she gets whiny lol. I have to share some pictures, everytime j and emery are playing i pull out the camera and snap snap away. He always gets the BIGGEST smiles out of her. I get smiles too but i think she gets sick of seeing me all day lol. Here are some pictures i took yesterday.. amazing. I must admit im a little jealous at times!
Thought i would share.
Thought i would share with you all this
These are beautiful and a great idea for fathers day coming up, Or hell you dont need a reason just get it lol!
http://theiveyleague.com/
She does the most beautiful mosaics, cant wait to get one!
These are beautiful and a great idea for fathers day coming up, Or hell you dont need a reason just get it lol!
http://theiveyleague.com/
She does the most beautiful mosaics, cant wait to get one!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
New things
So now I am all caught up on this new blog, still learning the ropes so forgive me all!
Anyways, Emery still isnt rolling we are trying to teach her by putting her favorite toy next to her, but she just cries and archs her back and i feel so bad i give in immediatly lol. She also is teething really badly so she has been a whole lot more fussy then normal which sucks, my usual smiley baby girl is sad and fussy. On to other things, Yesterday i went to the bank with Emery i have horrible horrible anxiety at the bank i dont know why i just do. I feel like everyone is staring at me not to mention that our bank has horrible lines. I am usually there on average for 45 minutes waiting in line its crazy. Well after the bank i wandered around with Emery to some other stores , Sallys beauty , the dollar store before returning to our car. I have a 2 door car so i have to get in the back seat to put emery back into her carseat, WHICH SUCKS, i cant wait to get a 4 door. Anyways as im in the back of the car putting Emery into her carseat the guy next to me gets into his car and HITS MY CAR WITH HIS DOOR, HARD! He looks right at me in the car and then looks away. So i get out, and say "You could at least say your sorry" he says "for what" Um hitting my car with your door he replies "Oh i didnt notice" I reply with yea im sure you didnt! And he sped away JACKASS! I wouldnt have been mad if he would have just apologized but nope. Wow i just got a strange craving for motza ball soup, strange. No im not pregnant again. Anyways still no word on j's deployment date yet, i heard that usually they start all the predeployment stuff 4-6 months before , so i guess if we are right about january then the paperwork will start this summer. Ill let you know more when i know more.
not so chipper
6/2/09
Today i am sad.. I miss my family back in Ohio, my dad left me the most amazing voicemail this morning.. Made me miss my parents so much. I hate the fact that I cant see them as much as I'd like and that Emery cant be around her cousins. My brother is moving back to Ohio, after living with his wife and son in tennesee for the last 7 years.. Im jealous, so so jealous. Everyone will now be back together with the exception of me j and emery. I havent seen my brother in almost 2 years. He hasnt met his newest neice yet, and it makes me depressed. This blog is short because i dont have much else to say i promise a nice chipper blog to follow shortly.
Today i am sad.. I miss my family back in Ohio, my dad left me the most amazing voicemail this morning.. Made me miss my parents so much. I hate the fact that I cant see them as much as I'd like and that Emery cant be around her cousins. My brother is moving back to Ohio, after living with his wife and son in tennesee for the last 7 years.. Im jealous, so so jealous. Everyone will now be back together with the exception of me j and emery. I havent seen my brother in almost 2 years. He hasnt met his newest neice yet, and it makes me depressed. This blog is short because i dont have much else to say i promise a nice chipper blog to follow shortly.
Life of a Marine Wife.
posted on 5/28/09
Well we found out that Jeremy aka J my husband will be deploying its 99.9% we just do not know the date yet.. pretty sure its january but not positive. The deployment is 13months long. UGH.. Were hoping that since he is a very valuable person, he made a database for his company that they use on a daily basis and no one else knows how to maintain it, That they will only keep him deployed for 6 months, but thats hoping! Either way, it sucks. Afghanistan SUCKS.. Anyways i thought i would post a couple pictures, from the other day of him and Emery i love them , he is such an amazing husband and father, And he's my best friend.. I have no idea what i am going to do without him for that long, For the last 5 years he has been by my side.. The longest we have been apart was 4 months .. while he was in bootcamp, then i saw him once or twice over the next 3 months of training and then we got stationed.. Here are some pictures! SORRY THEY ARE SO BIG LOL
Well we found out that Jeremy aka J my husband will be deploying its 99.9% we just do not know the date yet.. pretty sure its january but not positive. The deployment is 13months long. UGH.. Were hoping that since he is a very valuable person, he made a database for his company that they use on a daily basis and no one else knows how to maintain it, That they will only keep him deployed for 6 months, but thats hoping! Either way, it sucks. Afghanistan SUCKS.. Anyways i thought i would post a couple pictures, from the other day of him and Emery i love them , he is such an amazing husband and father, And he's my best friend.. I have no idea what i am going to do without him for that long, For the last 5 years he has been by my side.. The longest we have been apart was 4 months .. while he was in bootcamp, then i saw him once or twice over the next 3 months of training and then we got stationed.. Here are some pictures! SORRY THEY ARE SO BIG LOL
San diego to LA, and back again...
So i went to an LA Celebrity mommies dinner event tonight well uh last night i guess since is almost 2 am..It was interesting...It was fun, got to see a lot of awesome baby products.. totally want an orbit system lol (as if i could EVER afford that) Really awesome futuristic looking highchairs , Lots of cool stuff.. Pluss i met Ali Larter, Molly ringwald. The mom from my wife and kids.. and lots of other awesome people. Some were extremely rude, some were polite. Left with a gift bag full of stuff. and a bumble bag diaper bag. SWEET! we all got to leave with one of the showcase products, unfortunatly my number was called almost very last , so i didnt have much to pick from the orbit was gone, the awesome highchairs were gone.. But i needed a new diaper bag since the unfortunate event of my cat and my diaper bag... yea.. he peed in it, and well i had to throw it out after that... So I ended up leaving with something Useful which is great! The drive to LA from San Diego was ugkoasduoaejsdghosa to say the least i have horrible driving anxiety and well.. lets just say not a trip i will take often. I am definitly more fond of San Diego.
Now im home , and Emery keeps waking up and coughing, which worries me, last time she had a cough she had to go to the hospital, so i gotta keep a close eye on that, hopefully, it s nothing. that would be great. Ill upload some new pictures tomorrow, i didnt take any at the even cuz it was so HECTIC no joke.. great plan poorly executed. Anyways im off.. takin care of my angel!
Now im home , and Emery keeps waking up and coughing, which worries me, last time she had a cough she had to go to the hospital, so i gotta keep a close eye on that, hopefully, it s nothing. that would be great. Ill upload some new pictures tomorrow, i didnt take any at the even cuz it was so HECTIC no joke.. great plan poorly executed. Anyways im off.. takin care of my angel!
my little fishie
originally posted on 5/24/09
We took Emery swimming for the first time in the pool i have no pictures because i was enjoying it to much to grab the camera. She was kicking those little legs it was so cute.. We even had her kicking and we would pass her back and forth like she was swimming by herself to us and she would smile... She kept trying to put her head under though lol she does that in the bathtub too! It was a good tempature but still to cold to keep her in for very long. We stayed in for about 30 minutes before some inconsiderate a$$holes pardon my french let their kids jump in and do cannon balls right by us in the SHALLOW END with an infant. nice huh, that california for you! Needless to say it was a blast, the ocean is still to cold to take her in but hopefully soon! Anyways were off to church! Post more later!
We took Emery swimming for the first time in the pool i have no pictures because i was enjoying it to much to grab the camera. She was kicking those little legs it was so cute.. We even had her kicking and we would pass her back and forth like she was swimming by herself to us and she would smile... She kept trying to put her head under though lol she does that in the bathtub too! It was a good tempature but still to cold to keep her in for very long. We stayed in for about 30 minutes before some inconsiderate a$$holes pardon my french let their kids jump in and do cannon balls right by us in the SHALLOW END with an infant. nice huh, that california for you! Needless to say it was a blast, the ocean is still to cold to take her in but hopefully soon! Anyways were off to church! Post more later!
Woo Hoo (warning, bragging ahead)
Posted on 5/22/09
EMERY IS SITTING, holy crap yes she is sitting. I am so excited for this, some of our nurses and dr.s told us she may not be able to sit on her own until she was closer to a year.. So needless to say I AM VERY HAPPY! She isnt perfect at it yet but im sure it wont take long.I will post a better post later but for now, i had to do some bragging lol. Here are some pictures, dont mind the spit up carrots hahaha!
EMERY IS SITTING, holy crap yes she is sitting. I am so excited for this, some of our nurses and dr.s told us she may not be able to sit on her own until she was closer to a year.. So needless to say I AM VERY HAPPY! She isnt perfect at it yet but im sure it wont take long.I will post a better post later but for now, i had to do some bragging lol. Here are some pictures, dont mind the spit up carrots hahaha!
the lone shopping trips.
Originally posted on 5/19/09
was just thinking about this the other day, I was thinking about the days that emery was in the nicu, although that was a hard time sometimes i stop to think about it to put myself in check and remind myself to be thankful for the things i have in life. So anyways i was thinking about the one thing that bothered my most about her being in the NICU. When i was pregnant people could see i was pregnant they could see i was about to have a baby and they would smile, i always thought when i had my baby and took her out i would get the same reactions. Then i found myself running errands while emery was in the nicu, no tummy, no baby.. no evidence that i was a mother besides my shopping cart full of preemie onsies, baby girl colored blankets.. im sure people thought i was buying as a gift. I remember trying to bring up how much i missed her while out shopping in hopes that someone may hear and realize i wasnt childless. I was jealous when i saw new moms out with there babies or even pregnant women. I remember being in walmart in tears because it wasnt fair that other women could have their babies and leave the hospital with them, i even remember saying they are buying newborn diapers i will never get to do that illl have to skip straight to size 1.. it was stupid and petty of me to be this upset over such a dumb thing but i was. I wanted to be a mother so so BADLY, and now i was but no one knew. I remember walking back into my math class on campus 2 days after i had the baby, i didnt talk to realy anyone in this class but they all saw me with a belly just a few days before and now, no belly. NOT ONE PERSON SAID A THING TO ME. Im not sure why they all knew i wasnt due until after the semester. But no one said a word. This made me even more upset. They just looked at me and when i would notice they would give me that apethetic smile.. but they had no idea what happend. I wanted to scream
" I AM A NEW MOM MY DAUGHTER IS TINY AND BEAUTIFUL!! " The reason i bring this up is because you never know what someone is going through and sometimes it is worse to not ask at all. Our nicu reunion is next month and im very excited to see everyone. I am excited to hear everyones stories. I am excited to show off my beautiful, happy, miracle baby girl. I hope these memories never fade..
was just thinking about this the other day, I was thinking about the days that emery was in the nicu, although that was a hard time sometimes i stop to think about it to put myself in check and remind myself to be thankful for the things i have in life. So anyways i was thinking about the one thing that bothered my most about her being in the NICU. When i was pregnant people could see i was pregnant they could see i was about to have a baby and they would smile, i always thought when i had my baby and took her out i would get the same reactions. Then i found myself running errands while emery was in the nicu, no tummy, no baby.. no evidence that i was a mother besides my shopping cart full of preemie onsies, baby girl colored blankets.. im sure people thought i was buying as a gift. I remember trying to bring up how much i missed her while out shopping in hopes that someone may hear and realize i wasnt childless. I was jealous when i saw new moms out with there babies or even pregnant women. I remember being in walmart in tears because it wasnt fair that other women could have their babies and leave the hospital with them, i even remember saying they are buying newborn diapers i will never get to do that illl have to skip straight to size 1.. it was stupid and petty of me to be this upset over such a dumb thing but i was. I wanted to be a mother so so BADLY, and now i was but no one knew. I remember walking back into my math class on campus 2 days after i had the baby, i didnt talk to realy anyone in this class but they all saw me with a belly just a few days before and now, no belly. NOT ONE PERSON SAID A THING TO ME. Im not sure why they all knew i wasnt due until after the semester. But no one said a word. This made me even more upset. They just looked at me and when i would notice they would give me that apethetic smile.. but they had no idea what happend. I wanted to scream
" I AM A NEW MOM MY DAUGHTER IS TINY AND BEAUTIFUL!! " The reason i bring this up is because you never know what someone is going through and sometimes it is worse to not ask at all. Our nicu reunion is next month and im very excited to see everyone. I am excited to hear everyones stories. I am excited to show off my beautiful, happy, miracle baby girl. I hope these memories never fade..
Life is crazy but i love it.
Originally posted on 5/18/09
So , the 6 month stranger anxiety has made its self known. Yay (not the sarcasm) lol Emery has always been very cool with other people holding her loving on her she loves the attention, on friday that at home nurse told me that i should expect her to start having stranger anxiety, i was like NO NO WAY, SHE IS GREAT WITH OTHER PEOPLE, she even said, trust me it will come out of no where. So 10 min after she left i took emery with me to check our mailbox, we stopped in to our rental office to say hi to the ladies are usual thing, and i handed her off to beatrice, and Emery started screaming, i was like WHAT!!!!!!!! (of course she has to prove me wrong haha) As soon as she handed her back to me she stopped i was seriously stunned lol. Then yesterday at church my nursery number came up so i had to go down their and pick her up halfway through the sermon because she was crying as soon as i picked her up she was laughing and smiling little faker lol.
So im sure this has happend to other moms but i feel so stupid for doing this, So being busy and well i dunno i dont really have an excuse for my ignorance, i realized Emery's zantac was getting low and that i needed to call her dr to put in a nother prescription for her for it. Well um, i didnt, until today and we have been out for like 2 days. I feel horrible. So now i have to wait for her dr to call me back and then for the naval pharmacy to fill it which who knows how long that will take and then i have to drive 30 minutes to go pick it up..urgh ignorance on my part lol.
So if you know me you know i looooove taking pictures of emery , my hubby got me an awesome kodak touch screen 10mp camera for xmas. I take pictures everyday of her and out of nowhere sat i turn it on and it will not focus you can hear it trying to focus but it wont i was SOOO MAD!! We suck at keeping receipts so i didnt have it anymore and that is the only way kodak would send us another one so i went straight to the source walmart where we bought it. They were so awesome they let me exchange it but they were all out of the model i bought, so i ended up exchanging it for another one that was the same price, another kodak but its EVEN BETTER 12mp HELL YEA! i was pretty pumped that they let us do that , they were kinda leary since we bought it almost 6 months ago but after they looked at it and realized there wasnt a scratch or even a little knick on it they were cool. (soo sooo awesome)
Here are some pix i took with my new camera today still learning all of its cool features..
Here you go, better post to come later!
So , the 6 month stranger anxiety has made its self known. Yay (not the sarcasm) lol Emery has always been very cool with other people holding her loving on her she loves the attention, on friday that at home nurse told me that i should expect her to start having stranger anxiety, i was like NO NO WAY, SHE IS GREAT WITH OTHER PEOPLE, she even said, trust me it will come out of no where. So 10 min after she left i took emery with me to check our mailbox, we stopped in to our rental office to say hi to the ladies are usual thing, and i handed her off to beatrice, and Emery started screaming, i was like WHAT!!!!!!!! (of course she has to prove me wrong haha) As soon as she handed her back to me she stopped i was seriously stunned lol. Then yesterday at church my nursery number came up so i had to go down their and pick her up halfway through the sermon because she was crying as soon as i picked her up she was laughing and smiling little faker lol.
So im sure this has happend to other moms but i feel so stupid for doing this, So being busy and well i dunno i dont really have an excuse for my ignorance, i realized Emery's zantac was getting low and that i needed to call her dr to put in a nother prescription for her for it. Well um, i didnt, until today and we have been out for like 2 days. I feel horrible. So now i have to wait for her dr to call me back and then for the naval pharmacy to fill it which who knows how long that will take and then i have to drive 30 minutes to go pick it up..urgh ignorance on my part lol.
So if you know me you know i looooove taking pictures of emery , my hubby got me an awesome kodak touch screen 10mp camera for xmas. I take pictures everyday of her and out of nowhere sat i turn it on and it will not focus you can hear it trying to focus but it wont i was SOOO MAD!! We suck at keeping receipts so i didnt have it anymore and that is the only way kodak would send us another one so i went straight to the source walmart where we bought it. They were so awesome they let me exchange it but they were all out of the model i bought, so i ended up exchanging it for another one that was the same price, another kodak but its EVEN BETTER 12mp HELL YEA! i was pretty pumped that they let us do that , they were kinda leary since we bought it almost 6 months ago but after they looked at it and realized there wasnt a scratch or even a little knick on it they were cool. (soo sooo awesome)
Here are some pix i took with my new camera today still learning all of its cool features..
Here you go, better post to come later!
Milestones
Originally posted on 5/14/09
Today our at home nurse came to visit, we have a new one, and she is awesome!!! She stayed for 2 hours, she wanted to hear all about emery, we talked about everything she could and couldnt do and put her on a chart and she is right on track with a fullterm 6 monther!!! I was so excited to hear that, she is a little behind on her fine motor skills like picking stuff up, reaching for stuff but still at 6 month level. Awesome since she is technically only 4 months and 4 days old.. even though she is 6 months and 14 days lol.. She is 14 lbs 9 1/2 oz and 25 1/2 inches. The hubby came home for lunch when the nurse was here and the nurse was so surprised by how great they interact together, j walked right over to emery and start playing with her like he always does. When he left she was like "wow you dont see many dads, that play with their baby espeically when they are so young" She commented on how awesome we were doing , and how surprised she was that i have my head on straight and how mature i was. It was a refreshing conversation for sure. i still can not comment on the issue i was refering to in the post before this, but i promise i will soon, it isnt about us or anything so dont worry. I am taking tae kwon doe this summer im so pumped i took yoga this last semester and just finished that this week it was a blast. So im very excited to do tae kown doe, you lose weight so hey why not.. ah thats my cue emery is fussing time for some pureed peaches lol im off,
bye guys!
Today our at home nurse came to visit, we have a new one, and she is awesome!!! She stayed for 2 hours, she wanted to hear all about emery, we talked about everything she could and couldnt do and put her on a chart and she is right on track with a fullterm 6 monther!!! I was so excited to hear that, she is a little behind on her fine motor skills like picking stuff up, reaching for stuff but still at 6 month level. Awesome since she is technically only 4 months and 4 days old.. even though she is 6 months and 14 days lol.. She is 14 lbs 9 1/2 oz and 25 1/2 inches. The hubby came home for lunch when the nurse was here and the nurse was so surprised by how great they interact together, j walked right over to emery and start playing with her like he always does. When he left she was like "wow you dont see many dads, that play with their baby espeically when they are so young" She commented on how awesome we were doing , and how surprised she was that i have my head on straight and how mature i was. It was a refreshing conversation for sure. i still can not comment on the issue i was refering to in the post before this, but i promise i will soon, it isnt about us or anything so dont worry. I am taking tae kwon doe this summer im so pumped i took yoga this last semester and just finished that this week it was a blast. So im very excited to do tae kown doe, you lose weight so hey why not.. ah thats my cue emery is fussing time for some pureed peaches lol im off,
bye guys!
not much
to say, kinda having a weird couple of weeks... (i will update on this later) i cant right now for legal reasons..
anyways.. Emery is doing great growing and growing and thriving, her gerd is under control, and well ill leave you with some pictures until our next post which will hopefully be tomorrow!
anyways.. Emery is doing great growing and growing and thriving, her gerd is under control, and well ill leave you with some pictures until our next post which will hopefully be tomorrow!
Happy 6 months!
Posted on 4/30/08
Today is one hell of a happy day, Today Emery turned 6 months old, Something we were unsure would even come her first few days in the NICU. I look at her on a daily basis and i thank god, but today i reflect, not just on her story but also on me and my husbands story. I remember her first ultrasound, her heartbeat, the first time i felt her kick, or have hiccups inside me, i remember feeling her kick me when she didnt like the way i was laying or feeling her move more when i ate certain foods.. I remember sitting on the couch while j told stories to her, about how we met, and how much we loved her. All i wanted was for her to be healthy and happy, i never thought i would have her 10 weeks early. I remember getting jealous when i heard of my friends who had healthy full term babies. I remember my husbands reaction when he found out we were having the baby that day, all he could say was "She will be fine hunny she is a perfect mix of you and me, she is stubborn like her mommy, she is a fighter like her daddy, and you better believe, that a little girl with those qualities isnt gonna give up" When she was born she never needed oxygen, it ASTONISHED the doctors, they even did 3 different tests to see if maybe they were wrong about her gestation but she was only 29 weeks 5 days. Now she is 6 months old, and has only had one brief hospital stay since her 7 week nicu stay. I look at her and i see more wisdom in her then i do in some adults, she can read my face when im upset she smiles and coos, when im tired she will take a nap so that i can, she knows me so well, when im depressed and i pick her up she will hug me tight and rest her head on my shoulder, something she rarely does since she found out how to lift her head up and look all around . Today i thank god, my family, my friends, everyone in this community, For being there for us, for helping us in our hard times and being there for the great ones as well. We our trully blessed to have all of you in our lives.
Happy 6 months LiL miss emery, you have touched so many peoples hearts, you are our little miracle. We love you!
Today is one hell of a happy day, Today Emery turned 6 months old, Something we were unsure would even come her first few days in the NICU. I look at her on a daily basis and i thank god, but today i reflect, not just on her story but also on me and my husbands story. I remember her first ultrasound, her heartbeat, the first time i felt her kick, or have hiccups inside me, i remember feeling her kick me when she didnt like the way i was laying or feeling her move more when i ate certain foods.. I remember sitting on the couch while j told stories to her, about how we met, and how much we loved her. All i wanted was for her to be healthy and happy, i never thought i would have her 10 weeks early. I remember getting jealous when i heard of my friends who had healthy full term babies. I remember my husbands reaction when he found out we were having the baby that day, all he could say was "She will be fine hunny she is a perfect mix of you and me, she is stubborn like her mommy, she is a fighter like her daddy, and you better believe, that a little girl with those qualities isnt gonna give up" When she was born she never needed oxygen, it ASTONISHED the doctors, they even did 3 different tests to see if maybe they were wrong about her gestation but she was only 29 weeks 5 days. Now she is 6 months old, and has only had one brief hospital stay since her 7 week nicu stay. I look at her and i see more wisdom in her then i do in some adults, she can read my face when im upset she smiles and coos, when im tired she will take a nap so that i can, she knows me so well, when im depressed and i pick her up she will hug me tight and rest her head on my shoulder, something she rarely does since she found out how to lift her head up and look all around . Today i thank god, my family, my friends, everyone in this community, For being there for us, for helping us in our hard times and being there for the great ones as well. We our trully blessed to have all of you in our lives.
Happy 6 months LiL miss emery, you have touched so many peoples hearts, you are our little miracle. We love you!
We Walk
Originally posted on 4/25/09
we had our march of dimes walk today here in san diego, it was beautiful out. It was incredible to see so many people turn out.
I saw alot of peoples tribute t shirts for maddie, It made me tear up, such an inspiration who has touched the hearts of so many people all over the country. Her parents have so much strength, i almost wish i would have walked in LA just to hear her mothers beautiful speach, she posted it in her blog , if you would like to read it..
www.remembermaddie.com
The walk was wonderful, and of course miss emery turned on her charm for everyone and anyone, we got a special tu tu and onsie made for her and she looked way cute.
The walk was amazing and i cant wait to do it again next year , although i was kinda bummed that i didnt get a t-shirt because we were 30 dollars shy of 250 ...
I hope you all had fun at your walks to, next year i'll be sure to make my own cool team tshirt!
we had our march of dimes walk today here in san diego, it was beautiful out. It was incredible to see so many people turn out.
I saw alot of peoples tribute t shirts for maddie, It made me tear up, such an inspiration who has touched the hearts of so many people all over the country. Her parents have so much strength, i almost wish i would have walked in LA just to hear her mothers beautiful speach, she posted it in her blog , if you would like to read it..
www.remembermaddie.com
The walk was wonderful, and of course miss emery turned on her charm for everyone and anyone, we got a special tu tu and onsie made for her and she looked way cute.
The walk was amazing and i cant wait to do it again next year , although i was kinda bummed that i didnt get a t-shirt because we were 30 dollars shy of 250 ...
I hope you all had fun at your walks to, next year i'll be sure to make my own cool team tshirt!
Thanks Doc
Originally posted on 4/24/09
Yesterday Emery had her 6 month check up, j and i were starting to become more and more concerened with Emery's gas problem lately, Emery always has gas , yes i know all babies do but hers is horrible, she will scream from it and oh i just feel so bad, we have to give her gas drops after every bottle, and if we didnt give those it would be SOOO much worse. She always spits up too, after every bottle, we have changed her formula numerous times, we cant give her the special preemie formula because its way to hard on her tummy. She is on gasease formula and it helps but its still bad...
Anyways we brought the gas up to Dr. Piccone the best doctor ever, and he was a little concerened that at 6 months she still had bad gas, but then when we brought up the spitting up he decided that she needs to try zantac. yes the heartburn medicine.. In the NICU they thought she may have GERD, its gastro reflux disease, now im pretty sure she does. Dr. piccone told us it may be up to a week before we saw a difference but no joke after the first dose i noticed a difference it was the very first time i had fed her and she didnt spit up.. then the gas she had was super minimal. When i gave her the 2nd dose same thing NO SPIT UP.. I WAS SOO EXCITED and i still am. I cant explain how good it feels to know she isnt in agony and to not have to worry about her spitting up after each feeding. I am so glad that we have such a great doctor, considering we have military insurance and we have to be seen at the naval hospital its rare to get a really awesome doctor. We met him when Emery had to go back to the hospital in january when they thought she had RSV, turned out to be bronchiolitis, Dr. Piccone is the High risk infant pediatrician, until then she had a different doctor that i didnt like because he wasnt the one the nicu wanted us to have. So after that, i started making her appts with him, he is so awesome he remembers her name and he is very sweet and he isnt one of those doctors that just comes in does the check up then RUSHES out of the room, which i love because i cant stand doctors like that. He sits down with us shows us her percentiles for full term babies her age and then preemies her age and so on.. Im just happy , that he decided to try this medicine..
anyways, then while we were waiting in the pharmacy for her medicine, our pharmacy is in the hospital, it often reminds me of a meat counter you take a ticket and then you sit there and wait for your number its like bingo.. they have 12 counters all calling different numbers.. Your like YES MY TICKET IS UP!!!!! so iin the pharmacy another woman and her husband sit next to us with their baby who is the same size as emery. She leans over looks at emery asleep in her car seat and says aw shes 4 months right.. I say no, shes 6 mo her eyes looked like they were going to bulge out of her head, which made me laugh.. Wow she is, um, just smaller then my son Then i say ya well she is preemie so yep she is a bit smaller! oohh.. Then our number was called and she didnt have time to sprout into her 21 questions that im absolutely sure she had.. lol i dont mind answering peoples questions, but sometimes i just dont want to, espeically when my anxiety is kicking in , in a pharmacy filled with 60 people all within ear shot from you telling your story.. no thanks not interested..
Anyways i will leave you with a few pictures, from the beach the other day , Emery and I went with her nicu roomate, MARK.. he is 5 days older then her and he was born at about 31 weeks, but was the same weight as Emery was, and they were in the same room together and she was always just a couple days behind him, even getting discharged, His mother and i have become extremely close and we get together alot .. so here our some pictures of Emery and her nicu friend Mark..
Yesterday Emery had her 6 month check up, j and i were starting to become more and more concerened with Emery's gas problem lately, Emery always has gas , yes i know all babies do but hers is horrible, she will scream from it and oh i just feel so bad, we have to give her gas drops after every bottle, and if we didnt give those it would be SOOO much worse. She always spits up too, after every bottle, we have changed her formula numerous times, we cant give her the special preemie formula because its way to hard on her tummy. She is on gasease formula and it helps but its still bad...
Anyways we brought the gas up to Dr. Piccone the best doctor ever, and he was a little concerened that at 6 months she still had bad gas, but then when we brought up the spitting up he decided that she needs to try zantac. yes the heartburn medicine.. In the NICU they thought she may have GERD, its gastro reflux disease, now im pretty sure she does. Dr. piccone told us it may be up to a week before we saw a difference but no joke after the first dose i noticed a difference it was the very first time i had fed her and she didnt spit up.. then the gas she had was super minimal. When i gave her the 2nd dose same thing NO SPIT UP.. I WAS SOO EXCITED and i still am. I cant explain how good it feels to know she isnt in agony and to not have to worry about her spitting up after each feeding. I am so glad that we have such a great doctor, considering we have military insurance and we have to be seen at the naval hospital its rare to get a really awesome doctor. We met him when Emery had to go back to the hospital in january when they thought she had RSV, turned out to be bronchiolitis, Dr. Piccone is the High risk infant pediatrician, until then she had a different doctor that i didnt like because he wasnt the one the nicu wanted us to have. So after that, i started making her appts with him, he is so awesome he remembers her name and he is very sweet and he isnt one of those doctors that just comes in does the check up then RUSHES out of the room, which i love because i cant stand doctors like that. He sits down with us shows us her percentiles for full term babies her age and then preemies her age and so on.. Im just happy , that he decided to try this medicine..
anyways, then while we were waiting in the pharmacy for her medicine, our pharmacy is in the hospital, it often reminds me of a meat counter you take a ticket and then you sit there and wait for your number its like bingo.. they have 12 counters all calling different numbers.. Your like YES MY TICKET IS UP!!!!! so iin the pharmacy another woman and her husband sit next to us with their baby who is the same size as emery. She leans over looks at emery asleep in her car seat and says aw shes 4 months right.. I say no, shes 6 mo her eyes looked like they were going to bulge out of her head, which made me laugh.. Wow she is, um, just smaller then my son Then i say ya well she is preemie so yep she is a bit smaller! oohh.. Then our number was called and she didnt have time to sprout into her 21 questions that im absolutely sure she had.. lol i dont mind answering peoples questions, but sometimes i just dont want to, espeically when my anxiety is kicking in , in a pharmacy filled with 60 people all within ear shot from you telling your story.. no thanks not interested..
Anyways i will leave you with a few pictures, from the beach the other day , Emery and I went with her nicu roomate, MARK.. he is 5 days older then her and he was born at about 31 weeks, but was the same weight as Emery was, and they were in the same room together and she was always just a couple days behind him, even getting discharged, His mother and i have become extremely close and we get together alot .. so here our some pictures of Emery and her nicu friend Mark..
Age aint nothin but a number
originally posted on 4/21/09
and mine is just a bit lower then mosts..
Topic of today is age, some of you may know some of you may not.. I am a young mommy. I am 20 I had Emery when i was 19, but and this is a big but, I have been married for almost 2 years, been with my husband for 5 years total and she was PLANNED.
I am saying this because, the minute people see me with a baby besides asking how old she is they feel the need to ask my age, they say wow YOUR SOOOO YOUNG! Most of the time i reply with YES I am! I get very angry about this because, most people assume my daughter was an "accident". and nope she wasnt , my husband is 24 and we both wanted children young. We knew we were getting married so i stopped taking birth control, it took us 8 months to get pregnant, i even got a book "The everything on getting pregnant book" great book actually. So i just get a little testy when people just assume this. You wouldnt believe some of the looks i get from people in stores, my husband laughs because he thinks its funny that I am a better mother then a lot of people , and my age has nothing to do with how well i can be a parent.
We have no family in California, they all live in Ohio, so my daughter is not being raised by anyone but me and my husband.
I love some of the questions i get from people "why would you want a child so young" my response, Why would you wait? that usually shuts them up or they respond with we wanted to be ready finacially, when they say that i say Well i am financially stable.
Another one i get alot is " You must be having such a difficult time?" Um are you saying this because I have an infant or because of my age. My response is, well actually i think most people with an baby would say it isnt easy..
Oh here is another good one " What about your education?" believe it or not guys IM STILL IN COLLEGE , i do online classes, and i take a class 2x a week at the campus after my husband gets home from work.
When i was pregnant my doctor kept using the term "Teen pregnancy" because i was 19 that always made my husband laugh, Im actually surprised he never went off on her, it took everything in me to not be a huge bitch to her, although J would tell you i was lol..
Anyways, the point of this story is I am an amazing mother anyone would tell you this, and it has nothing to do with how old I am. So next time you see a young mother think twice about the looks you shoot her, or the snide remarks you say to your teenage kids and husband.. It just makes me grateful for having the amazing parents I had.
Plus, When Emery see's me her love for me doesnt change because I am young she loves me because I love her with my whole heart, and I am giving her an amazing life. Her dad fights for her freedom and we couldnt love our little girl more!
and mine is just a bit lower then mosts..
Topic of today is age, some of you may know some of you may not.. I am a young mommy. I am 20 I had Emery when i was 19, but and this is a big but, I have been married for almost 2 years, been with my husband for 5 years total and she was PLANNED.
I am saying this because, the minute people see me with a baby besides asking how old she is they feel the need to ask my age, they say wow YOUR SOOOO YOUNG! Most of the time i reply with YES I am! I get very angry about this because, most people assume my daughter was an "accident". and nope she wasnt , my husband is 24 and we both wanted children young. We knew we were getting married so i stopped taking birth control, it took us 8 months to get pregnant, i even got a book "The everything on getting pregnant book" great book actually. So i just get a little testy when people just assume this. You wouldnt believe some of the looks i get from people in stores, my husband laughs because he thinks its funny that I am a better mother then a lot of people , and my age has nothing to do with how well i can be a parent.
We have no family in California, they all live in Ohio, so my daughter is not being raised by anyone but me and my husband.
I love some of the questions i get from people "why would you want a child so young" my response, Why would you wait? that usually shuts them up or they respond with we wanted to be ready finacially, when they say that i say Well i am financially stable.
Another one i get alot is " You must be having such a difficult time?" Um are you saying this because I have an infant or because of my age. My response is, well actually i think most people with an baby would say it isnt easy..
Oh here is another good one " What about your education?" believe it or not guys IM STILL IN COLLEGE , i do online classes, and i take a class 2x a week at the campus after my husband gets home from work.
When i was pregnant my doctor kept using the term "Teen pregnancy" because i was 19 that always made my husband laugh, Im actually surprised he never went off on her, it took everything in me to not be a huge bitch to her, although J would tell you i was lol..
Anyways, the point of this story is I am an amazing mother anyone would tell you this, and it has nothing to do with how old I am. So next time you see a young mother think twice about the looks you shoot her, or the snide remarks you say to your teenage kids and husband.. It just makes me grateful for having the amazing parents I had.
Plus, When Emery see's me her love for me doesnt change because I am young she loves me because I love her with my whole heart, and I am giving her an amazing life. Her dad fights for her freedom and we couldnt love our little girl more!
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